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so tonight i am procrastinating from writing my History paper. i got back my first grade of the semester today. on half of it i got a 70 and on the other half i got a 85. it was for philosophy. the teacher says i jsut kinda left out some important things for the argument the guy made. she said my argument was good but the stuff i had left out prior made it weaker than it woulda been otherwise. so a 77.5 to start out with. not as good as i expected but we shall see what the future holds, i hope it goes up, i gotta make better than c+'s for my GPA to go up now (first time ive ever been able to say that in college, its always been plain old c's...
so yeah, imma go back to papering and reading and such...i gota go the the 'brary soon to find some sources...but hugh has my car, i wonder when he is getting back. i'm lazy idont wanna walk al ltheway to the brary and back in the dark. oh well we shall see, i got some work i can do here still.
bye bye.
"only liars but we're the best.
only good for the latest trends.
only good cause you can have all those famous friends.
besides we've got such good fashion sense."
-FOB
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[11 Aug 2006|06:44am] |
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so anyway, i seem to rarely post to this thing, only when i cant sleep or am avoiding studying/school work. that is what i have noticed.
umm, i need t find a job still. i thin kthe fates (and my semi laziness) are conspiring agaisnt me. im gonna blame the former more because A) that is how i truly feel and B) even if it wasnt it shifts some of the blame off of me.
anyway, i wanted to go camping this weekend but since i have no job i cant pay for anything since i spent too much money the last month and a half, i know im whining, but what else are these things really good for? i mean, people read them not to see what you are doing but to hear you complain and/or tell them your thoughts on things. i mean how fun would a "i went to school. we learned stuff...blah blah blah..." post be? not fun at all, yeah. its the pinions that make it interesting to read.
so anyway, back to the post, at least when i went to franklin today i saw a few places that are hiring. so i'll jsut go and fill out apps with them and hopefully get to talk to somebody and they can be like "you look like a fine upstanding young man. we think you'll do" (name that song, win a prize....though it is slightly misquoted) and hten i can have a job and some income to buy stuff with.
back to the point before i get sidetracked, im not looking forward to job hunting i hate having to sell myself to people. it makes me feel weird, but i guess i gotta do it to get a job. im not all that good at it either, cuase i get shy. i mean i am shy, not that you'd ever know cause i tend to be loud and boisterious to hide that fact. but oh well whatever. im a paradox. or maybe im jsut dumb. anyway, im trying to waste away the time til i can re-register for classes and be done with that caca...for a week or so...since the system here at lovely UNC is fucked up. you get 17 hours at first and then a week prior to the semester it ups to 18 hours. so since i need to take 18 hours....thats just fucking glorious cause i have to plan and hope the course i want/need isnt full by the 18th (when they up the hours)...anyway, yeah, im not happy with the set-up.
so i now have an hour to wait, this didnt waste nearly enough time and i cant really think of anything else to bitch/moan/complain/offer anything of interest about...other than this
the bengals are gonna win the AFC North, stokely gray caldwell iii is a shit-talking, lying, blaspheming, tool-bag for thinking the fucking steelers or (gasp) the ravens are gonna do it. i told him i hate the panthers in retaliation, i think he was actually pissed for a second.
also, the Heels are gonna be funking awesome in hoops this year, football im just hoping we beat duke, state and wake (in that order of importance). any more wins than that are jsut an added bonus.
goodbye.
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[11 Jul 2006|10:31pm] |
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ok, so living in your own house has benifits and downsides...
like noone to tel lyou to do anything, but you gott pay bills.
like you can stay up as late as you want and noone yells to turn out your lights but then the morning still comes.
like just being ble to hang out, but then theres thecrazy(esque) roommate.
so anyway, i think im gonna get an xbox360. tht should be fun. i think imay just give away my xbox controllers to hugh and kenny. and trade in my xbox and some games that i dont play anymore.
anyway, thats pretty much it. gotta midterm tomorrow in poli86. funness. yay!!!
ok bye bye
"and i dont wanna go to london. i told you i dont care. i dont wanna go to london, or live there..."
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[03 Jul 2006|06:45pm] |
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i gotta b+ in Econ, which is good, i guess. she bell curved it. there were only like fifteen or twenty people so....i guess i won or got second in the class.
anyway, aforementioned grade brings me up to a 2.21GPA. i know, not good, but considering tht at the start of 2006 (Fiscal, not school or liturgical) i had a 2.06...not too bad. i hope it keeps going up. it would be nice to finish college with at least a 2.5...
anyway, what else? moved into the house in carrboro. its nice. needs to have the yard mowed, which means we need to get a mower. ummm, what else...
drews back from paris. he says he had a good time. umm, he was surprised to see me with my new haircut. for those that dont know. i got it cut ormal people length...meaning it covers about half of my ears.
umm, thats about it. i like my new TA in poli. hes funny. my class is good. they like to talk which is good since the course requires it alot.
anyway, imma go now and cook some dinner. bye bye.
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| everyone, everyone will listen...even if it hurts sometimes. |
[04 Jun 2006|02:18am] |
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so, i dunno why, but i am in the most dejected melencholy mood of late. i feel ugh, i dont even know. its not sad, its not happy, its not...it jsut is. does anyone out there know what i am talking about?
i feel like a loser for still writing in this thing. but i dont care. i do it anyway. it makes me feel better most times. but thats ok i guess, to feel like a loser.
thinking back over the past lately. "good times bad time ya know i've had my share..." a lot more good than bad. mostly because i dont take much seriously, thus it is hard to get me down. unfortunately these melonchaly moods strike occasionally and there is nothing to do about them.
i realize now that im grown up. it kinda scares me. it means i have to be responsible. as much as ive wanted it prior to now, i dont anymore. i want to go back about 5 years. do the things i missed out on. not the things i regret. i dotn have many of those. a few stick out, one in particular. but oh well, i cant go back in time. and i cant change the past. the things i missed i missed: maybe for better; possibly for worst.
so now the question as i ready myself to move out of my house (Which i have come to believe is part of the reason for this particular mood) is can i be responsible. i have bills to pay now that will come to me and i have to take care of them: electricity, gas, water, cable/internet, (arent in my name but i still have to pay them), cell phone, credit card. wow. i am ready for it (i say that to reassure myself more than because i feel it).
putting this all down in writing makes it seem more real, which i think is a good thing. oh man. im...i dont even wanna say it...so i wont...i'll jsut go write in my litle blue spiral bound notebook with chapters of a story that is forming of its own accord, with the chapters needing editting so it fits cohesively, not so each chapter matches whatever mood i was in when i wrote.
i remember, the last chapter "ended" on such a happy note. the last chapter wasnt actually finished when i had to stop writing but if i were to wrie more on it now, it would definately not fit, at all. err, maybe it would. i kinda let it at a parallax where it could go either way, so maybe it would. cause i didnt really like where the story was going. i mean, i did but i didnt want it there yet. so maybe this will help it out some. also i gotta go back and write the beginning. i started at where i wanted the 3rd or 4th chapter to be cuase i couldnt figure out how to start. maybe i could write the beginning now. of course, i would have to change the details in the typing of tyhe later chapters that i have already written to fit the start but that cant be that hard.
oh man, i havent done anything with my story in like two weeks. i dont think its particularly good, but then again, i dont think anything i do is good, except running, and i dotn do that well anymore. im so outta shape. but i am trying to get back in shape now. i need new running shoes. and to get those i need money. so i need a job. if only hams would say "yes we hire you" i could go buy some shoes and not worry anymore. cuase i'll have the money to back up my credit statement once it comes. and i could get some of the other things ive been coveting. ohhh man...i need a job.
oj, now that i have written this behemoth, im gonna go and write something for me, that noone else will ever see, for a while at least. until i get it to where i am happy with it. which, right now, means i have to finish the first draft and then edit it, twice...so maybe by the time i get to be a senior...we do afterall, have a month between secnd summer session and school starting....and i could jsut do it then...ok, im rambling again.
goodbye.
sleep well, at least try (god knows i cant), thats all one can ask for.
"where all the children left without a trace/ only to come back as your eyes shone/ to recite this ode/ "tonight,/ hey love, here i am/ and here we go life's waiting to begin"/.../i cant live; i cant breathe unless you do this with me.
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[20 May 2006|08:16pm] |
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so its been nearly a month since i updated.
anyway, got back grades, they were good (for me). my GPA went up to a 2.145 (from a 2.072)...thats a step in the right direction. 1st semester of summer school started. im taing econ10. its graded on a 13 pt scale. how odd. but nice. hopefully i'll do good(though nopt grammatically).
umm, what else, i have an interview with ham's on monday at 3.30. ummm, my sleep pattern has returned to the sembelance of normal. i've started going to sleep around 2AM since i have to get up earlier. either that, or i dont go to sleep. that mkes the trip to and from the Thrill a real drag.
something strage this way comes...and i dunno what prompted this change in thinking in me. its odd.
anyway, umm, my room is a mess but less than a month til we move into the house. we decided the 16th/17th. one of those two days is when we will move in.
ok im done. for now. later.
"she walks on red carpets all the time, in my eyes, in my eyes."
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"we swing and we sway as thevoice in your head sings 'you are safe child. you are safe.'
you are safe child. you are SAFE!"
~Taking Back Sunday-"My Blue Heaven
Once you are tagged you MUST write a blog entry about your 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next seven people to be tagged and list their names.
1) i sing poorly(like really really badly). but i do it anyway, sometimes jsut loud enough so others can hear me and to annoy them.
2) i like to watch the horrible movies that come on the SciFi channel late at night. alot, its hte high point of my day sometimes.
3) i cant go to sleep without laying awake for over an hour. (is that normal? it is for me. but i think i may be an insomniac with a destroyed sleep pattern)
4) i always have to have something in both my front pockets and both my back pockets (assuming hte pants/shorts have front and back pockets) even if its only a scrap of paper. and if the pants are like running shorts and only have one pocket on one side, i cant put anything in there.
5) i prefer reading to watching tv. and video games. even if its reading something on the computer, but books are preferrable.
6) i dont believe that line: "it takes the next one to get over the last one." i think thats a lie jsut to make people feel less guilty when they move on.
i tag: ernest, goo, jon, stokely, colin, jordana and earhart
so now ofr hte update, it'll be short
i gotta go fix my iPod, something is wrong with the connections for the right ear speaker (in my iPod not in the earphones. i checked it out already).
umm im done with papers. only finals left. in 11days i had home for a month before moving out for what i suppose is ever. im kinda happy, but kinda sad at the same time. i mean im ready, but then again....ahh nostalgia, how you hurt the emokid/romantics. and i am a hopeless one of both of those.
"its not the quantity that bothers me
(its not the quantity that bothers me).
its not hte quality that bothers me:
its me.
twenty twenty surgery.
well, twenty twenty surgery for cheap...
you're so sensative; i am a machine."
~Taking Back Sunday-"Twenty Twenty Surgery"
~~~~~~~ahh how good we are at using hindsight to disect ourselves and rip ourselves apart....maybe i should add that to my list of things....but i already got si. too bad i could go on for much longer. dont get me wrong im happy; im jsut damn good at disecting all my "faults and failures." sometimes i wish i was a machine so i couldnt do it to myself.
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[25 Apr 2006|04:26am] |
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so, thats all that is left of this last 2 weeks of school this year. then its home for the holidays....at least until summer school starts. (my roomamte just made a snort noise...which he denies and tells me im crazy. he lies, he lies, i tell you....anuay...back to train of thought.)
anyway, tomorrow, well technically today in 6 hours, the LEGAL version of the new TBS cd drops. im so excited.
umm what else? i dont really have anything to say. the story is coming slowly. i know where i want it to go, jsut not how to get there. and i have writers block. i can think of ideas but they wont go on paper. i did write a page (long hand) today, which is an improvement over hte past two weeks.
anyway, imma go to bed for a while and then go get LouderNow later today.
goodnight.
pleasant dreams.
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"i dont feel better when i'm fuckin around. and i dont write better when im stuck in the ground. so dont teach me a lesson cause i've already learned. and the sun will be shining and the children will burn."
~the strokes-heart in a cage
"do you have to be happy to write a happy song? do you have to be sad towrite a sad song? in love for a love song? and does it work better when you are?"
~'the enemy' to 'PRE' in Almost Famous
so book update. im kinda stuck. i know where i wanna go, i just dunno how to get there, and i dont really have time. i have four papers due in 9 days and i really need to hop on that in short time.
um what else? went to the mile after concert. it was AWESOME, the before bands were good too. Yearling was good. Rouletta was awesome, like 60s/70s rock reborn.
easter was great. i got to hang out with my whole family. i enjoyed that. good times. i miss the family at school.
hmmm, what else. im an insomniac. i cant sleep regular, even when i try. i jsut toss and turn and wake up like every 45 minutes or so. i dd have an interesting dream a while ago. Laura Barker was in it. but she wanted to be called Stephanie Amanda....so weird. i know where the amanda came from, that used to be her roomie, but i dunno who stephanie is. ...anyway, clark and iwere skateboarding at her house (but not really, there was a big hill where it shoulda been flat, and clark and i were more of luging). then i was like "hey laura. come out and skateboard with us" and she was like "my name is stephanie amanda" and i got confused and then clark wanted to fight me. it was odd. he said "thats what i get for calling girls by the wrong name" and tried to hit me. so i "skated" away and tried to hide but they jsut kept finding me. and clark kept trying to hit me. and then i realized it was a dream and that made it even worse cause i coudnt wake up....does that ever happen? you realize you are dreaming and can somewhat control what is going on but not completely?...like in my dream i tried to get to jenn ritchey's house but when i got there, the house was gone and there was a big sunflower in the way....
oh man, now that i wrote this all i realize how wierd my dreams are. maybe thats why i never have them, or at least, never remember them. which might not be a bad thing. im not sure how much id like m friends constantly changing names and attacking me for made up names. i might start getting confused in real life and not liking my friends. that would suck
at least im no having that weird recurring nightmare about wolves i had when i was little every night for like a month. im not even gonna tell you about htat one. that wolf was smart and really scary. he could open doors with his teeth. even if they were locked....ok enough of that...its still scary and im 20 now. i havent had that dream in like 12 years but it still sticks out whenever i hear "nightmare." like htat movie about night terrors, i dont remember the name, though that coulda been the name, before they showed you the world that the girl was trapped in, i only saw wolves as the "bad things." i didnt watch all of that movie the first time it was on tv. it took me two tries.
nyway, enough of my dreams. though feel free to Divine their meanings if youd like, id love to hear it....it might be good for a luagh....i have weird dreams. really really weird.
so imma go now. good bye for now, i'll be back at some pint, maybe before exams, but definately after.
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[03 Apr 2006|02:34am] |
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lemme jsut say that this last weekend was one of the best on record. i cant say all that occurred because then this would take you an hour to red, at least thats how long the story takes (ok so maybe only 15 to 20 minutes but....). it was grand. and i even did my paper. only one left this week....then its on to the next round of shit i have to do.
im in a great mood. because of this weekend. i wish that some things were different (not with this weekend but in general and this weekend reitterated some of those) but im not too hung up on any on them so it'll all pass.
i lvoe taco bell and beer. not necessarily together but i like each. i love jello shooters.
by the way, sam scott is really smart. i cnt elborate why but i can say that she knew it was time change time when the rest of us didnt believe her. she was all about some time change, as emily said.
book update...i think i got three or four rough chapters. none are beta-ed and none are really editted so they cant even be considered canon yet. as jon said "they need fluffing to make them longer") heres hoping htat htis summer i can get some serious work on this snce the rest of the semester is gonna be hectic and i might get to finish another chapter total (if it turns long like the last one did otherwise maybe i can get two done).
thts it. good bye weekend, i shall miss thee.
back to the grind.
"tried to aviod it but theres not a doubt. theres some things that i can do nothing about."
~tbs (20 days and counting)
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[23 Mar 2006|05:53pm] |
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SO i hve done basically nothing productive in the past 2 weeks. sure ive tken tests nd done stuff like that but i've been a thorough lay-about of late.
i've been speeling (a bit) more. i've been reading more. i guess those are good things. i wrote a chapter, well that is an overstatement, i outlined a chapter and wrote its skeleton. it still needs details and fluff. and its not the first chapter, its in the middle, so i need to go bck and fill in beofre it. it ight not even be a full chapter but the later half of a chapter, i think that iswhere its actually headed, so i gotta write that part of it too.....oh man, i enjoy it, i just have a hard time with the names of characters and hashing out ideas taht i like.
ok, thats all
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[08 Mar 2006|06:44am] |
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"you're killing yourself, you know that?"
"yeh but its for the better. at least this way i'll go out on top"
oh man, what a day, what a night, and tomorrow is jsut gonna be more of the same. today(tomorrow in the prior sentance) is wednesday. i have 2 tests (in Poli and Spanish) and a quiz (in Myth) its gonna be great. i stayed up all night studying for Poli and Myth, i'll do Spanish in my break before it. tomorrow evening oughta be interesting. im gonna try to finish my paper, i wonder how long i can stay up. this week (since monday morning 12A) i have accumulated 11.5 hours of sleep...so its gonna be a test. but once i finish the paper, im done with everything until break. and that will be great...i cant wait for tht to happen....even though im gonna try to work and get ahead come break time.
"i still believe that tomorrow is the key to today. knowing that it has the chance to be better makes tody worth the pressures. tomorrow is infinite possibilities."
"neh, tomorrow is just another chance to do what we've been meaning to all the time. another day to put it off. and another day to regret putting off things and actions we arent fond of"
"but we can fix it all. starting tomorrow..."
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[06 Mar 2006|12:57am] |
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so....in my boredom last friday i started writing a book. weird right? i know. i dunno when i'll finish it or what ut it mde me hppy writing it so i think i'll continue it...
...anyway, i may put parts of it up here as i finish them. i gotta get time towrite them first, and i gotta have somewhere to write them as i experience writers block in my room/at home....yet anoher dilemma....
ok well thats it
"and i dont wanna drag it/dont wanna bring you down/inever wanted it to end this way"
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[27 Feb 2006|01:36am] |
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"'cept for sweet melissa"
pardon me if i type poorly in this entry, i have in no contacts. as a matter of fact, i have no contacts at this school. and i cant drive home to get them because i cant see) fun fun fun. (soidenote: no glasses either)
how did this happen you might inquire? well clark and i were being immature, imagine that for a second, haha, ok seconds over come back here, im not done with the story (though that provides a damn good summation) and we were "sword fighting" with rolled up DTHs and were dual-weilding. so he knocked one of my weapons away and then i was attacked from behind (WITH MY OWN WEAPON!!!!!!!!!) by stokely. as i was pretending to die i ws stabbed and killed... in true Mortal Kombat fashion, we had to round 2 it, which i won. so it was round 3. no disarming this time. clark goes for the finisher first. i get stabbed in the eye with a paper....suddenly everything goes blurry and i am blind. no contacts. clark whacks me once more as the "finisher" (unknowing of my blindness) and i lose.
then we head back to ehuas, me being berated by jokes at my inability to see, and thats the end of the story
then i went back to the theme one of the weekend, tolstoi (with an "i" at the end in true russkii fashion). man tolstoi is good, but he is a damn slow read. i coulda read all three TLoR books or all 6 harrypotter books in the time it took to read the 320 page tolstoi tome.
anyway, its done. im blinf, and im still not couaght up with where i need to be by tuesay. heres hoping that i get there, also class tomorow isin question as i cant see hterefore it would be difficult for me to get anything out of going as i cant read the board to take notes and if i dont write down things the teachers will assume i am ot paying attention and in the classes i have tomorrow the notes are generally more instructive than the teacher lecture (sadly),,,,though i thnk i will go and take the subpar dicta-notes. just cause that would be a good showing on my part and i need to learn what is said in class.
ps-tomorrow is a busy day.
"you are everything i wanted cuase you were everything i'm not.....gotta make damn sure. make damn sure...i jsut wanna birng you down so badly."
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[17 Feb 2006|01:58am] |
Open iTunes/iPod or Windows Media Player to answer the following. Go to your library. Answer. Tada, its easy.
How many songs: 2891, wow.
Sort by song title:
First Song:"It's Not a Side-Effect of the Cocaine; I'm Thinking It Must Be Love"-Fall Out Boy
Last Song:Zee Deveel-Incubus
Sort by time:
Shortest Song:Welcome-The Offspring (off of Americana)
Longest Song:The Story So Far-A New Found Glory (its one of those closers with a hidden track attached)
Sort by album:
First Song:Don't You Forget About Me-Simple Minds (off "the breakfast club" soundtrack)
Last Song:Hang-Matchbox 20(off of Yourself or Someone Like You)
Sort By Artist:
First Song:All Downhill From Here-A New Found Glory
Last Song:Gifts and Curses-Yellowcard
Top Five Most Played Songs:
1. Dance, Dance-Fall Out Boy
2. Sic Transit Gloria...Glory Fades-Brand New
3. Seventy Times 7-Brand New
4. Luckie St.-Cartel
5. Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off-Panic! at the Disco
First five songs that comes up on Shuffle:
1. Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off-Panic! at the Disco
2. I Want to Save You-Something Corporate
3. Karate Schnitzel-Tenacious D
4. Satan's Bed-Pearl Jam
5. All About Her-A New Found Glory
Search ....
"sex", how many songs come up? 6
"love",how many songs come up? 76
"death", how many songs come up? 79
"you", how many songs come up? 500
I'M SO BORED
"where's my fuckin' schnitzel?!?"
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so midterms time. and apartment hunt is almost over. we are goingto look at a house on thursday. it looks nice from the outside. im excited. i cant wait for friday.
tomorrow is valentines day. you know what that means? all black. same as every year, whether or not im single. i hate valentines day. people all expect to get stuff on valentines day. its not about spending time with the people you love or enjoy. its about the stuff. the same as every other holiday in america. christmas, easter, 4th of july, etc.... even thanksgiving. its all about being thankful....for the copious amounts of food.
i hate holidays. i dont care about the stuff (ok, i do, but not as much as i do getting to see people). for christmas this year, the best gift wasnt one i got. it was a compilation of pictures and videos my aunt and uncle, with the cooperation of my parents, gave my grandma a DVD of my (deceased) grandpa. she was so happy. she didnt know how to work the DVD player and i had to do it, and write her detialed directions on how to get to the correct input and how to get the DVD player to play again but seeing how happy (and sad) she was when she got to see grandpa made me more happy than any gift i have ever gotten. and she was so happy that i got to go up there to see her, becuase i generally cant go up with my family due to my being at college.
thats what holidays should be. not get stuff for someone. spend time with people that are important to you. and tell them.
i know, its corny, its overdone, its cliche but whatever. so be it
ps-i hate (americanized) holidays.
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so it has been an interesting week, to say the least.
sunday...to start it out the pnathers lost, then i go to move my car back and i have a ticket on cuase i didnt have the pass put i nthe right place (on the mirror) cuase when my parents brought it and switched it out they just stuck it on the dash. what bullshit, you could see it, it just wasnt hanging.
so then monday...nothing occured.
tuesday....we go to hams. i drive and bring peoples back here. i park out in the ehuas parking lot cuase i need to come in and go pee and dont wanna hold it walking back from the parking deck. i walk back out there like 10 15 minutes later, and there is a ticket on my car. this one is for parking in the e-huas lot without the proper permit. (for the record thats two tickets thus far this week).
wednesday...i go pay those two tickets. lovely. what a good job that is. 35$. lovely.
thursday...i missed class for the first time this semester today. i fucked up setting my alarm. i was up i jsut didnt realize it was time to leave. i was reading for a class i didnt even have that day. later that night, stokely gooes to school board meeting and gets lost on the way up there. calls me and we work on directions for like fifteen minutes. he finally gets there (25 minutes late). he calls me to come get him from the PR lot after that gets over. so im driving up there, going roughly the speed of all the other traffic when i look in my rearview mirror and see cop lights. so im thinking, oh i'll get over outta the way so i move into the right lane and the cop pulls over behind me. FUCK, i think. so i pull over to the side of the road. the cop comes up and shes like "sir i clocked you at 52 in a 35." great. something else to add to my list of wonderfull occurances this week. so she goes bakc to her car and comes bak later (stokely has called twice asking where i was. i told him i was getting a ticket and that noi was not fucking with him). so she comes back and is like "sir were you aware that your license has expired?" holy mother of god. "no" i respond, the actual truth. i thought it expired at my 21st birthday not my 20th. so she writes me a ticket and gives it to me. tells me to go park my car i nthe nearest parking lot and such. this i cant do, i pull in and stay there for a few minutes and hten leave to get stokely. i drive back at 35 (i seriously thought airport road was 45, everyone else was going right at 50, why the fuck did this lady pick me outta the crowd?).
now i have 3 tickets, in 5 days. lovely. well bad thingsw come in threes they say...
friday...nothing outrageous occurs. im clsoe to the duke number (for UNC duke tickets that is). yay! something semi-good. so anyway, i go to lena's going away party with drew and stokely. thats interesting. coming home was interesting too. but i dont feel like rehashing that on here. you guys are probably already losing concentration skills from my babblings.
saturday...i miss the heels game cuase i thought it was at four cuase we were away. good job on that one. it was at one (and at home, by the way). the rest of the day is pretty uneventful. i went and saw SawII with stokely lena delaney and schleip (someone id never met before). that was fun but hte movie was depressing. then stokely and i go back and wath the sandlot at the OV. i like hte sandlot alot.
so anyway thats my week, and htat didnt even go into the crappiness htat was school. but htats about normal. oh well whatever so be it. cant have your cake and eat it too.
all in all much more bad than good. and the good isnt even a for sure good. i really want duke tikets. that would be lovely. id be soo soo happy. tha twould almost make up for al lthe tickets. every single one, not that im saying it would make up for hte 195 that all of them are, but it would make up for hte badness that they are.
im tired of dorms. im ready to get an apartment, im ready for my own room. im ready for this to be done
so im stoping now.
"reaching out. cna you help me as im reahing out? but noones near me and through all this time been reaching out blindly."
~cartel
(thats where the title of this post is from too, but a different song)
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[07 Jan 2006|05:58am] |
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so now for my new years resolutions.
i have a few of them, but only one that pertains to the general populace:
1. i am going to my classes. i got my schedule set up in a form conducive to my attending classes. so i am gonna go to them all. all semester. and this time, im actually gonna do it. and im gonna do well in my classes, if this means no XBox, so be it, i'll bring it home if grades start to slip. im cracking down this semester. mark my words. no misses (im gonna pretend im in hig school and we get three but that im one of those teacher pet types that always goes to class anyway. im not sitting in the front though), better grades. here goes nothing...
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| everything that i told you....was a complete and utter lie |
[07 Jan 2006|05:45am] |
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"tell me all that you've thrown away...."
(well in the last two days: 6+hours of driving to go ice skating and moving in and being inable to. ummm, prior to that i cant even keep up with it.)
"trace this li(n)e back...."
(tonight jack and kenny and i took speed racer out and made a video. it was complete inanity and utterly dumb. but it was fun, and noone got hurt. though from the video you would think jack smashed his skull and then kenny's best/worst crash wasnt even caught on tape. he almost plowed into a brick mailbox at about 25MPH.
ok in order for you to better grasp this lemme explain to you what speed racer is: take a shopping cart, bolt cutter off the top and add a bit of padding and two handles for "steering" [i use the term loosely]. so you are careening like 2-5 inches off the asphalt. then get a car and a rope. push the gas and speed racer follows, however fast the car goes, and not nearly as safely as the car...
ok, with that outta the way, i had no near death experiences cuase i was the sober one driving kenny's car around while they rode the back. i seriously thought i had caused kenny's demise and was dreading having to call his mom while i slowed the car down and stopped to se if he was ok when he missed the big brick mailbox by inches (literally, im not kidding) and then jack hit a manhole (on film). speed racer proceeded to hop and then sputter and jack force tossed off of it, he ripped the glove he had on and on film it looks as though he hits hand forearm head and then rolls a couple of times.
we decided that next time we take speed racer out we are gonna wear helmets and elbow, wrist, and knee pads. and long pants and shirts and gloves are in order also (after seeing jacks wreck and destuction of the glove) no matter how hot it is. we all prefer to have skin attached to ourselves.
"the company lost the war today...this is the dawning of the rest of our lives...on holiday"
so jsut lemme say, i love breaks. i love summer. i love school, not so much the classes but school in general. i didnt do anything of consequence over break except hang out and by myself. i can say that it was a great time the whole time and not feel a twinge of remorse (well, lifting and taking care of james not so much but other than that...)
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